B*tch forum.

I always feel the best time to write is when I am feeling something intense. Anger, elation, profound disappointment, whatever. It galvanizes me to write better, and more honestly. And now is one of those opportunites I must seize.

I heard that David went shopping with Weixuan and drove down to her place with Sheena. There's nothing wrong with that, and I think it's great that they're all chummy. But what is so, so disappointing is that it reminds me of everything we used to be, and more.

FCUK! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TELL ME WHY YOU FCUKING HAD TO LEAVE?

I've been racking my brains wondering what could possibly be wrong with me. Okay, I admit, I'm quite a handful, I'm even scary. All those fainting fits, all that shopping when we should have been studying, the admissions about the ex and the hurting, and all those fcuking rumours. No wonder you got scared off.

I don't like to give up without a hard fight, but what am I to do here?

David, it just disappoints. I don't think it was fair to me at all. It wasn't what you did, but what you didn't do. I'm a sucker for closure. Why didn't you just tell me fcuking why.

I could live with that.

You don't have to please anybody, you're right. You're not a social butterfly, and I respect that. But I have spent my time trying to please you. Why couldn't you have told me goodbye?