Reprieve.

We passed each other in the hallway today and we didn't even say hello. See? Told you this is what would happen.

Liwen advised me to tell him how I was feeling. (Okay, even on reading back my posts, it sounds like I'm attracted to him, but nope, we are just friends.) I replied that I didn't want to keep pushing. I'm the kind of person who will pull back if the other person isn't expressing interest.

When I see how happy Weixuan and Melvin are, whether they're friends (as they claim) or if there really is something more, I can't help but be saddened, reminded of what David and I used to share. I remember once when we were shopping for his socks, I was whining that I was terribly cold, and impulsively/ unexpectedly he reached out to sling his arm across my shoulder, and asked if that was any better. After a second's reflection, I answered, "Actually, not really". To which he jokingly replied, "Aww, surely you can feel the warmth of my heart!"

Why do things have to change?

It seems that people spared Melvin and Xuan from the teasing that wrecked mine and David's friendship. My question is, why us?

This bothers me so much because David is.. was, my closest friend for a while back there. I wouldn't have invested so much in the friendship if I had known it would end like this. Emotional limbo. Relationship purgatory. If it had been anybody else, I could have dealt with it. But this is David.

What does it say of me when my closest friend decides to place an expiry date on the friendship? Speaks volumes.